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This is the place I record the musings of my Muse. She's a smart little cookie so you might like to pay attention to her, as I do... LOL!

Caught in a Dream

romance Posted on 11 Jun, 2013 14:41:44

This week I pulled out an old manuscript I wrote many years ago and decided it was time to dust it off and publish it. I did it with an odd sense of vulnerability. In much the same way I found publishing The Way Home made me feel vulnerable about my cancer experiences, Caught in a Dream makes me feel vulnerable about my belief systems.

When you announce to the world that you believe the world is an illusion, then you set yourself up for strange looks and people taking a subtle step away from you. But maybe its time I stopped worrying about that.

Maybe I’ve got to the point where getting the content of this novel out there is worth more to me than any discomfort I experience owning it does . Not that there’s anything ground-breaking in this novel. It’s all been said before by better minds than mine. But I like to think that maybe there is something in my presentation of the material that might make someone think a little differently after they’ve read it.

For me, the little glimpses into the illusion are like reminders that this world I perceive with my senses is only one reality. If I get caught up in it, I let go of my power to influence that world in a way that benefits me. I become a victim. When I allow myself to play with reality, by say, altering the weather, I’m not suggesting I’m a super hero or a magician, I’m simply reminding myself that we are all more able to affect our experiences than we realise. The more I do it, the more I step out of the drama.

I thought I might publish this book under a pen name as my romance readers might get disappointed when it lacks the hot love scenes that are my usual content. Sure this is a love story, but it is strictly PG. Largely because the hero is a eunuch and an old man for a good proportion of the book (LOL).

But I decided that I wanted this material ‘owned’ by me. I need to step up and stop apologising for holding New Age beliefs. So many of us still do that.

So if you’re reading this, and are curious about this new old book,( you can find it here: ) be warned, it isn’t my usual material. But I think it is important and I believe I’ve done a good job presenting it. But only my readers can tell me if I’m right.

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romance Posted on 28 May, 2013 15:08:49

Writing a Blog is not my first choice in activities, I have to say. I find myself wondering what to write, who will bother reading it and wouldn’t I be better of writing articles or fiction rather than spending time jotting down the musings of my Muse.

But after all those thoughts have come and gone I am left with the need to connect with my readers in a more meaningful way. And this, they tell me, is the most meaningful way – besides my books, of course.

So I’ll hand over to my Muse now and see what she has to say about Romance:

When you read or write romance it is an act of faith. You are putting out into the Universe the thought that love can change the world, one person at a time. It isn’t about the heady ‘in love’ sensation, which is the fodder of Romance, I know. It’s the deeper, more meaningful love that inspires greatness, that’s self-less and transformative – that is true love.

Acknowledging that kind of love when it comes to you is not always easy. The self-protective part of the self screams to get away. It knows that change has to come when such a love is discovered, and the self doesn’t like to change. So the first attraction is often followed by resistance, a drawing back before it’s too late.

That’s why there is usually a withdrawal phase in a relationship. It’s the time when the Self and self do battle over what the future will hold. Will it be more of the old or will it be the more challenging new?

Some readers of my books complain that attraction is too immediate. Love is experienced too quickly. But the recognition phase is often instant – the Spirit knows the moment it sees an opportunity to grow, and it jumps at the chance. It’s only when the realisation becomes conscious that resistance sets in – the drawing back – and the fear begins.

When you read my books think about what draws lovers together and then what pushes them apart. That push pull goes on in your own relationships all the time. Jung calls it Shadow Dancing… and we all Dance until we accept that its the love that is really important and allow it to turn Shadow to Light.

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